Precious

How can i put in in words?
The constant calling for you,
my silent strations of how I'll be dedicated to you.
if you choose,
I'll be ever faithful to you; showing you, giving you, and constantly contemplating many ways to please you.
He's precious like gemstones,
when I've found him, I'll know.
but I've gotta discover where he lies,
to no longer deal with cries and goodbyes.

the journey is tedious,
you can tell by the look on my face.
expressionless motions only performed with said grace.
mixed emotions pull me from here to there,
i want him now, but he can't be just anywhere.

Precious is what i like to call it,
unrealistic producing false hope.
unforgotten(I've condoned it); on judgment day, my fire will be well lit.
to let everyone see,
the desperation in me,
and for "precious" to be more or less,
set free.