Nothing is Black and White

I could never picture my life

In black and white

There are so many spectrums of color

Things can be so complex

But everything happens for a reason

Everyone touches my life

With a purpose

As I do theirs.

There is one who I care for

He has become so close to my heart

He may not even realize

And through trial and error there is a place for him

I only wish I could show him

How to be ok without his chemical

And another one who is gone

but still has a piece of me

His green eyes pierce through me

Like rays of hope

How could anything

Ever be black and white?

When love can be found in many places.

In many ways

My heart is too big

My hope is too high

Expectations too low.

Today I am ok

But the green eyes still glow

When I close mine.

I see them shine.

But it\'s ok that your still there.

I will find myself.

I will look hard.

And find out who I am.

This time around.