I Wish

I wish I could hide it
I wish I could forget
I wish I could be happy
I wish I didn't have regret

I wish that I was okay
I wish that I could be tough
I wish that the little good things in life
could actually be enough

I wish that I could fake
I wish that I could pretend
I wish that I could talk to you
at least lets just be friends

I wish I didn't write this
I wish I wasn't me
I wish that someone somewhere
might actually see

I wish I wasn't kidding
I wish I didn't want to die
I wish that all these poems I write
could all just be a lie

But the truth is I'm not kidding
the truth is I want to die
the truth is all these poems
are anything but a lie