To my dad

It's midnight and you're still not home
I called your cell, but you didn't answer your phone

Where are you at? are you at the bar?
You must be out of town since you took the car

1 in the morning and you finally stumble in
Knowing in my heart that you've committed a huge sin

You're married and i know with her, it's hard to get along
But it's been years with you two, it's been too long

Another night, another affair
But it's only a ring and vows, who should really care...

You know what dad, you weren't really there for me
Only on weekdays because your weekends weren't free

So while you were gone, i had to deal with my mother
Watching her take pills and drink, one after another

But who cares right, you're out getting what you want
Nobody here when you get home to confront

so whatever, i mean i guess cheating is the right thing to do
maybe I'll repeat and learn from you

My god dad, you didn't even know when i was born
You asked me that and my heart was torn

I mean I know i didn't make it when i tried to be perfect
I just gave up and knew i wasn't worth it

You don't know anything about me
You don't know what happens, what the hell DO you see?

When i hurt myself, you didn't say anything to me
Are you scared or care, LOOK AT THIS, what do you see?

You're daughter, flesh and blood, is at her edge
But i guess you'll trip me right over the ledge

So what's left now, oh father of mine
You walk around like everything is fine

so walk away from me again like my mother did
This 15 year old to you is nothing but a psychotic kid