I long to die..

I long to die
Just waiting for that last moment
When i shall die
Dying must be oh so easy
Cause life is oh so hard
A flick of the wrist to cut the skin
A gulp of the throat to show what's within
I always smile and I'm always laughing
But inside I'm dying
I give up trying
I take the blade and sign my name across my wist
And underline it on my throat
I bleed so much then hit to ground
Then i finally show my hidden frown....