Giving up now

by TeArS R FaLLiNg   Oct 4, 2005


I think i have to give up
as i just do not belong
i do not know who i am
and i can tell you i am not strong
i do not understand myself
and i do not care anymore
i am sick of deceit and pain
so i am now closing the door
i just feel trapped and smothered
i have no room to breathe
but i also feel so so alone
and i think i have to leave
nothing means anything
and i really do not care
because the way you all treat me
is like only fake love is there
this life stresses me out too much
i do not know which path to take
i do not know what is real
and soon i will completely break
i do not even know what is wrong
do not know whether to laugh or cry
but i am so completely numb
i could not laugh or cry if i tried
nothing makes sense
feels like i am just part of a game
i am full of low self esteem, hate
regret confusion and shame
the reflection in the mirror has changed
it is now a dark black hole
and i can not even remember
when i started to lose control
i just stare into the emptiness
of this world my life and my eyes
and pray for all of this to end
so i can give up this fake disguise

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  • 19 years ago

    by kirsty

    Gr8 poem thankxxx 4 commenting on mine. xxxx keep up the brill writing

  • 19 years ago

    by my_little_secret

    I loved that, i really did. It was like the short lines were showing how trapped and numb everything feels. That made me want to cry, wicked poem, really well written xx

  • 19 years ago

    by Fighter (Ariane L.)

    Awesome!!! i can relate, i used to feel that way. but don't give up, things will get better. maybe not right away, but they will get better. take care and stay strong.
    -xXx-
    P.S. thanks for the comments, they mean so much :D

  • 19 years ago

    by skyfox

    WHAT total brilliance!!!!!!!! The emotion, the confusion the helplessnessIt just leaps off the page. You have nailed how so many of us feel. I truly believe there is a way past this for us all. You do have an amazing gift with words.

  • 19 years ago

    by Pure Silence

    Great subject, wonderfully put darlin!...keep hope..

    Thanks for the comments your wonderfully talented gurl!

    Love Always
    Jenn x0x0x

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