An interesting piece with some good lines. Becareful with apostrphes and exporting documents here because then your word turns funny "canâ??t".
Make sure to try and explore your topic and dig deeper into it, you have some good ideas in there that could be brought out using more imagery, description and metaphoric language.
Also try using some more punctuaton to help the reader grasp the emotions you are displaying.
Some good ideas, keep on working at it!

I know what you mean. That's the same thing for me.