Where were you...

In my darkest hour.
Where were you.
In my time of need.
Where were you.
Nowhere to be seen.
And all I saw was just me.
I didn't see you anywhere.
It's almost like you weren't there.
My darkest hour was a cold place.
And I looked around and I didn't see your face.
That says alot about who you are.
When I needed you the most you were at the bar.
Drinking me away, your problem.
And then.
You left me with my younger sisters.
You treated me like your cysts and blisters.
Treat them with alcohol.
And then watch them drop and fall.
We were your kids.
I'm 19 and I still can't believe what you did.
We should have been your world.
Atleast if not me or my brother then your two girls.
Where were you.
I didn't know what to do.
And everything that I had in denial came out to be true.
You weren't drinking.
You were working.
I told myself that.
And now that I think back.
We didn't have any money.
Because you didn't want to deal with me.
How dare you call those two girls your daughters, they were mine.
And it took you all this time.
To realize what happened then.
You don't really miss me or them.
Your four kids are gone.
And you still don\'t know where you went wrong.
I loved you mommy.
But I guess the joke was on me.
Budweiser, the king of beers.
The bringer of tears.
And my fears.
And not to mention all my nightmares.
R&R was your weapon of choice.
The whiskey you drank never gave me a voice.
I relied on myself to stay alive.
When you were getting drunk a peice of me died.
Sure, I cried.
But you can't say that I never tried.
But it was you that lied.
You said you'd stop.
Not another drop.
But no, you HAD to have more.
And when your son is beaten and lying on the floor.
You said you were there.
But in truth, you didn't care.
So now all the lies come true.
And now ask yourself this, Where were you...