Memories that won't die...

Time and time again.
I find myself thinking of what happened back then.
All the things that happened to me.
The way things used to be.
Like, right now I find myself thinking.
Of how long you've been drinking.
Budweiser your favorite drink.
The one thing that made things go from the drain to the sink.
You still don't remember everything you did.
I think of all that happned when I was a kid.
I had those two girls.
They were MY world.
Not yours.
They weren't part of your chores.
You didn't help them through the worlds doors.
Now I watch them grow up.
And I'm glad I was tough.
And now tears stream from my eyes.
And with no surprise.
Their all from you.
And there's nothing anyone can do.
Flashbacks haunt my dreams.
Flashbacks are my nightmare's theme's.
Scar's in my minds eye.
Scar's that make me cry.
Memories that won't die.
As a kid I wish I would have been just a little stronger.
Just for alittle longer.
I'm glad I held it up like I did.
And to think I was just a kid.
Memorie's run my life.
Memories of your parties that ran all night.
Got us evicted from one home to the next.
Without any rest.
Running from a drunk.
We couldn't run enough.
Look at these scars that run deep.
Scars that haunt me in my sleep.
In your eyes my childhood was a blur.
I am twice the parent you EVER were.
Those two girls respect me more then they ever do you.
Only because I was the only sober person they knew.
They wouldn't be alive if it wasn't for me.
And now that isn't so hard to see.
I have memories with them.
Can you think back to then.
Who spent their whole day watching those two.
It definetely wasn't you.
My world.
Was those two girls.
I loved them with everything I had.
It's just to bad.
Your kids don't look out for number one anymore.
We go back to you and your kids are dead lying on the floor.
Don't call yourself a parent, don't lie to yourself.
Because overall the cards were dealt.
Set in stone.
And now were on our own.
We can hold our own.
Because were all fully grown.
I'm about to have a kid.
I'm gonna be a parent, something you never did.
All you've ever done was shoot me down.
Make sure I was on the ground.
And then you'd spin me around.
Keep me on the floor without a sound.
Kick me if I made any noise.
Leave me cold in silence without a voice.
But now I'm the one with the choice.
I don't need you anymore.
And you found that out when I walked out the door.
Into a better world.
With those two girls.
I love them with everything I have my heart and soul.
And that will never get old.
My two babies at my side.
And without you only a fraction of us died.
Yeah, sure we cried.
Night after night.
But what you did wasn't right.
You left us to die.
But I stepped up, and kept us here.
Now my dreams are my only fear.
Your just a scar in my minds eye.
Even when I try.
I'm only stuck with memories that won't die...