Lead a sad existence,
doing things because i have no choice,
Whatever happened to a happy life
Is that reality or just a fantasy?
2:19 am
Should these thoughts stay in my head,
do people really want to hear or care.
Can i survive a lonely life
or will i long to disappear?
2:23 am
Everybody says they want to know or understand
But they all leave you alone in the end.
Do i ask too much of friends
am i better off on my own?
2:30 am
Come to the conclusion that i think too much about life itself.
If i ignore those thoughts &drink &laugh i can be as happy as everyone else,
if i just hold back the tears... answer 'yes, thank you I'm good', like everyone believes.
Then maybe, just for a little while, myself i can deceive.
