I never know how to start a poem
Yeah, what a weird start for this one
I'm sitting listening to the radio
Now since the depression has again begun
Feels like I'm always moving
Leaving all my friends
Keep thinking I'm beginning a new life
Then it suddenly ends
And why can't I have a normal family
While most have dinner around the table
I'm sitting here eating alone
While my mother is watching some cable
My father...
Where the hell he is, who knows
Even after I found him,
Didn't want to keep in touch is what he chose
Been three long years since I've seen real friends
I know it wouldn't be the same
Wish I could go back to how it used to be
But I can't.. and who am I to blame
Well, I know I'll meet more people wherever I go
But just for once, why can't I stay
I shouldn't be writing this
It might end up here where I forever lay
But then I'd be able to see the person
Who left this world a year ago
I could at least stop writing these poems
And maybe the hurt would finally go
It's my mom that wants to move
I could just stay here and go to school
She could go live where she wants
But she would just think I was being cruel
So now I'm bored again
Go outside and think some more
Sit and stare at the clouds
As the rain starts to pour
