I don't have the time

I don't have the time anymore
I don't have time to do nothing more

Take time and fix things with my family
My mother started it all, she said it had to be

Why though, i didn't do nothing to anyone
And you just go behind my back and have my world come undone

I want to fix it, i can't stand the crying
But i just don't have the time

And the ex, i would love to straighten out the past
I would love to be with him again, real fast

I have this empty hole in my heart
Seems like it came when everything fell apart

I just want to hold him and say the right goodbyes
I want to put my face in his shirt while i let out all my cries

i know my past, this ain't no crime
But what i want i can't do, i don't have the time

These thoughts are horrible, and i hate it
I do not like any of them one damn bit

I don't want to be here, but obviously to my mother it doesn't phase her
I would do anything, give me 5 minutes alone with a razor

I just need to glide it over my wrist
I can't stand why i am so damn pissed

Just shut up and leave me alone
I've been doing this on my own

But i can't win either way
I'm not ever going to be OK

If you don't want to love me then fine
You live your life, I'll live mine

this loneliness is really killing me
i can't do anything or be anything i want to be

no matter what i do, something backfires in my face
Obviously I'm not wanted in this god forsaken place

Give me the knife, give me the pills
Time for the pain, time for the thrills

I'll take it all, I'm putting my life on this thin line
But this is all in my mind, i don't have the time