Deep

Deep down it hurts
I try not to care
But it always finds me somewhere
No matter where I am
Or what I'm doing
I think about it
And its not fulfilling
To my surprise
I cry sometimes
Not knowing why
I sit there thinking
Deep down it hurts I feel I'm not worth it
It's hard to say
But I don't think I will live through it
Throughout the days is cutting me deep
I don't know what to do besides sit there and bleed
I feel I must get up to save me because when I think of you
I think of you as a lost love
I held on to you but then I gave up
Trying and trying again
In my mind I don't understand
Why do u have to be like every other man?
Why do I have to be the caring and loving girlfriend?
Just wishing I could be gone
Because I am worthless
And thinking that I was wrong
You said you liked me a lot
You said you cared about me
Now I know you didn't mean it
And maybe it was all a plot to be
Now I sit there thinking about you and me
From then I wish I had a new friend
To save me from the end
To which I was brought
From all these dark thoughts...