True to life

Hold your breath to keep the pain
push the tears from your eyes
don't become even more insane
start telling yourself more lies

the wishful blade
creeps closer in my mind
repercussions now man made
keeps my reason blind

in this moment
nothing else matters
not love or life
especially the latter

no fear of death
no thought of health
just wishful thinking
and a sharp pain felt

it hurts to look now
cant glance over your name
to look at one more picture
will only end in pain

this is it
the moment of truth
this decision
affects most youth

do i it end here
and forget all the pain
or take the plunge
and die in shame
shame in who's mind?