Wishes and Rejection

Isnt exactly what i was going for but oh well...

Seeing what I wanted
Isnt what I want today
Regretting the fight I put up
And all the things you didnt say

Feeling like a reject
Struggling not to feel
You drained all the hope
When you came to reveal

Still not letting go
Not convinced thats its done
Although I know well
That it really never begun

Youre no longer appealing
For some reason I just ache
Maybe because being unwanted
Is something I just cant take

Even if by chance youd have me
Then I wouldnt want to be with you
Yet its the only dream Ive been having
But I know I was just something to do

We both see my pathetic attempts
To intrigue you to take me back
Past all the pity theres no remorse
You vanished right after your attack

I cant keep wasting time wishing
For you to tell me Im what you need
But I cant control these feelings
Or the reoccurring urges to bleed