Tell me why?

You told me no.
Told me it's wrong.
Said its the cowards way out.
And to think of who you'll hurt.

The thing you didn't do was.
Ask yourself those things.
I know your life was hard.
I know it was a mess.

A living hell you told me in the note.
I have so many mixed emotions from you.
Anger, Stupidness, used, lied too.
You told me NOT TO!

BUT YOU DID!
You took my pills.
Popped them one by one.
You lied to me.

Told me its not the way out!
YET there you are.
I found you there in my bathroom.
How do you think I feel?

You were my friend, my lover.
I hate how you lied.
I hate that you left me alone.
I loved you, didn't that matter.

Now, as I get older each day.
I think of how it was my fault.
You told me not to.
You said "NO!"
How come you did not listen?
Take your own advice?

Did you want to hurt me?
See me suffer?
Make me cry and go Thur years of therapy.
Who did you think would find you?

One more question before I end my life as well.
Did you love me truly?
Cause I loved you more then you could have guessed.
Should have proved it to you.

It's to late now.
For My dear I am sorry.
For my mistake I have made.

©Megan - 2005