Where is the reason?

They say all things happen for a reason that's hard to believe
As I sit here in silence broken hearted, crying eyes and just grieve
My world has been shattered, true love gone, they can never come home
Left to live life feeling totally alone

Yes others who care stand beside me - but they can't fill that gap
It's beyond all their powers to make me happy and bring them back
My heart has been shredded never ever to mend
Left alone to find happiness - well I could just pretend

At this time pretending is all that I have - that's not being harsh
All joy, zest for living, hope and faith is a farce
My life has been turned upside down never to be the same
Left alone to pick up the pieces - start all over again.

My son and my husband forever will roam - I have to believe
The thought of them just terminating at death I just can't perceive
My life's not worth living if I thought in some way they weren't here
I need to believe that some how they really are near.

Okay then what is the reason they were brutally taken away ?
For what good purpose couldn't they continue to live and just stay?
My thoughts just can't fathom the reason for this - it could be all a lie
I can't see the purpose two good men had to die.