Life sucks because of everything in it
Nobody can come to an agreement.
I'm so sick of this so called life,
I just want to point a gun to my heart and pull the trigger real tight.
I'm so sure people dream about me not being here in this world,
They probably think it will be a better place,
And I'm pretty sure it would.
It would be better because without me asking questions like,
Shoulda, woulda, coulda,
I shoulda went to school,
I woulda taken those drugs,
I coulda slept with him.
Those are all stupid questions to ask and to be asked.
But I don't ask those questions because I know the answers.
I think about the ones that really count.
Am I going to live to see tomorrow? ,
Will I survive the torment of every day life? ,
When is the time to live or die?
Ive always thought I wouldn't get this far.
Ive done so much
Drugs,
Alcohol,
And so much bullshit in my life,
Its starting to suck even more.
So I try to go on and forget about the bad times.
But at 10 pm every night, they come back to haunt me.
I cant sleep,
I cant speak,
I cant even listen to the music that plays at night,
Because all the voices in my head are louder and stronger.
So I try to close my eyes and go to sleep,
But visions of,
My dad drinking,
Losing my best friend,
Having my first heartache,
Get louder and louder.
I don't know why I hang on to those visions stuck into my very head.
Maybe they help me go on,
Maybe to try to help me not to become them.
Life sucks because of everything in it.
I just hate when I see your visions come with it.
You must think I don't have enough to see,
Well guess what, I do.
So quit with the bullshit that you give me,
Because in my visions,
I see you,
I see you dying,
Dying a very, very painful death,
Its painful because you don't know how to deal with your own visions,
That you give to me,
But every one has to deal with their past,
If they want to or not.
So heres a life lesson,
I know you don't want to hear it but its the truth.
What happens in the past,
You cant change it.
No matter how much you would like too.
But its life.
And life sucks.
It sucks because I'm in it.
