Sitting here Confused

Sitting here,
Not knowing what to do,
Thinking to myself
Why cant i be with you?

I know theres a distance
But it shouldn't matter,
You saying the reason why we cant be
Just caused my heart to shatter.

Starting to cry,
Because of what you said,
Now i keep thinking
That I'm better off dead.

This pain your giving me
I cant deal with it,
To you the distant may be important
But to me it doesn't mean shit.

I can be your friend
But don't expect me to tell how I feel,
The pain I'm going through now,
Its not going to heal.

You may think I'm pathetic for writing this
But i really don't care,
Because no matter what happens,
Ill always care.