To her...

Well it's been a while since i heard from you
I guess you have forgotten this place and have better things to do

I said it once and I'll say it again
From the beginning until the end

I understand why you went back home
I wouldn't want to leave friends and be alone

And here is everything straight from my heart
I'll piece it together while everything else falls apart

I never HAD an adult to listen to me
My friends didn't understand my life clearly

they were there for me but didn't know what to say
then i started to hold everything in, which wasn't OK

My friend wanted me to tell you about the boyfriend
She said i needed to talk to someone, you were a teacher but seemed like a friend

She said i needed to talk about the sex thing and how i was beat
But instead i told you i couldn't sleep or eat

After that day i thought that maybe i could actually talk to you
Maybe you would listen, but maybe you'd ignore me too

Time went on and i got better
I finally made it through all my stormy weather

But you helped me, and it means a lot
So much to me you have taught

I've always had to be the tough one
I was the one who always brought the fun

My friends look up to me and follow what i do
They even did the cutting thing too

I had to act like everything was OK
I was never sensitive, I'd never say something nice to anyone any day

But i told my friends how great you are
And how you know what you are doing by far...

My friends were shocked when i told them that i cried
They always wanted me to let it out, all of them tried

It may not affect you, but you affected more than me
My friends couldn't believe everything that they were about to see

I stopped drugs and hurting myself
I looked up to you, they could tell

And to be honest, the only person i look up to is my grandmother
But when i saw how strong you are, i found another

I thought you were a preppy girl, but you're a tough gal too
You went through a lot, i didn't think it was going to be true

People I've seen who had hard lives
Took them away with drugs, guns or knives

But you stuck to it and got what you wanted
You have good days and hell you've confronted

I was actually happy once again
A lot of my pain and grief went to an end

It was SO awesome to sit and talk to you
It felt like someone cared, and i did too

I was so glad to hear that you and your mother got along
You had some hard times, but at least that relationship didn't go wrong

I know you're gone now, you're back to your good ole place
And most likely, i won't ever again see your face

And that hurts because i really care about you
Yeah, i care about an adult, who the hell knew?

If i could i would sit and tell you how much you impacted me
And it would make you cry, it would seriously

I didn't want nothing from you, but i got something
I found something that I've always been wanting

Someone to care and to understand
Someone to help and lend me a hand

So i guess it is goodbye, but you'll always be on my mind
I wonder how long it'll take to leave this behind

I'm sorry for anything I've done
Thanks for the talks and the class fun

I hope you get everything you want and life treats you fair
And remember that someone back here still and will always care

*I couldn't get her out of my head tonight, so i'm going to keep writing haha*