For you...(eye bleed)

This is everything that I've got.
Is this what you want.
Look at me.
Frustration and anger isn't hard to see.
Look into my tearful eyes.
And listen to my unheard cries.
But before you do that let me hear your lies.
Lies are all that I hear.
Even when the truth is present and clear.
Look into my eyes and see my pain.
Look into my eyes and reflect my disdain.
This is what you created.
This is that is hated.
I live my life like I should.
I live my life the best I could.
For you I tried to be my best.
But frustration and anger is all that I express.
For you I can't disconnect.
I tried.
And everytime a peice of me died.
I TRIED.
Just go away.
Leave me here to die another day.
You were my mommy.
The one that could protect me.
I'm sorry I was such a failure.
I'm sorry alcohol wasn't your cure.
You drank it everyday.
And you pushed me away.
Your son.
No longer number one.
Just a burden in your way.
And still your burden lives today.
If I slit my wrists.
Would you live in bliss.
Would I be missed.
For you my anger festers and seethes.
For you...I bleed...