Painful fall

I do not know why i am shocked
i knew it all along
happiness just does not last
something always makes it go wrong

i got to comfortable
and took down my wall
only to set myself up
with this painful fall

i relied on someone for comfort
and trusted everything they would say
but now there is nothing left
and i have to go away

i have to go back to that life
but i do not really care
because i still feel alone
whether i am here or there

so how did we lose emotion
and the bond that we once had
how are the fun and happy days
filled with the angry and bad

how did i screw this up
wreck my friendship with you
please tell me what went wrong
and tell me what i can do

i just feel like an object now
like you don't care if i'm not here
like you would not miss me
because lately you do not want me near

i do not know what is wrong with me
but i guess i am pushing you away
i just do not know what to feel anymore
or if there is anything left to say

i guess it is just change
something everyone goes through
and i am too stupid and weak to realise
that change takes me away from you

to my best friend Melissa i do not want to lose you xxx