Unfulfilled love-wishes

I am but filled with nothingness
sweet blood-filled remnants of a love so cold and distant
my reflection... frozen in ice
a likeness known only by my heart
what would you do to me?
for me?
what would you change?
on a crazy camera-eyed Christmas morning
you are away
... my wishes left unfulfilled

make me beautiful!
send me your smile and make me beautiful!
i relish in the thought that you could one day be mine
and i yours
peek-a-boo missiles washing the clean-air sky
and the retched stench of a dead-end relationship
i cringe at the thought of unrequited love
yet it swallows me whole
empty
dead empty
cold dead empty
vengeful death and a kiss with your eyes closed
the incompletion of my social abilities
this is the reason that i hurt

and yet i love you.
i want to live in you and with you, yet we are miles apart
and yet i love you.
we are friends and that is that
and yet i love you.
please no.
please go.
please no.
i must go.
save your soul;
or i'll eat it whole
you live in me,
i die for you
and yet i love you.

are you frightened?
well, you should be
because no one in the history of this green earth has ever seen such viciousness and brashness in a love that one may hold
... hold for you
eternally scarred
i died.
never even got to see the stars
a lack-luster shriek inside the tears that you release upon your face
a clean severity so cold and dark
washing my pain away

a pain-stained run-away train
sent from the heavens below
light is dark,
dark is night
i kiss you cold
as my love begins to bite
rescue the hero that was sent to take away your evil
and make sure he says thank you-
or he was never worth it in the first place

you will never be mine.
i am the best you will ever know,
but you will never be mine
blurred vision has kept you from the happiness you seek,
you deserve
go ahead;
dream the screaming dreams of what you could've had
and all you ever needed
and remember that it was all right in front of you
forgive yourself? this is something that you will never be able to do
and yet i love you.

i cringe at the thought of unrequited love
and it is all your fault
but i will always be here;
holding my bleeding heart in front of your empty eye sockets
you blind bat!
you will just never know...

please no.
don't go.
please no.
i need you so.
please... no.
my best friend- you left my heart abandoned in the street
you are gone...

and yet i love you.