This is my suicide letter

~the beginning of the poem goes out to all and the end is directed to my mother you can tel the change~

"i love u"
you mean more to me than anything
you taught me to walk
to talk
you make me smile and laugh
and hold me wen I\'m sad
" i love you"
i wanna say that forever
so that maybe by the time tomorrow comes
this will b the only moment u can remember

"I'm sorry"
I'm sorry i ignore you sometimes
that i grudge and mumble
and stomp out
slam the door
I'm sorry that I've hurt you
not physically but emotionally
Ive left u stranded and helpless
because i never tell you whats wrong
Even though you try to help me
I'm sorry
I'm sorry
I'm just so sorry Ive disappointed you

i wish i could rap my arms around u like i did last night
before this all happened
you didn't even no there was a reason for it all
you just thought i was being nice
I'm so sorry
and "i love you"

you found me dead today in the bathroom in the tub didn't you?
I'm so sorry
and i love you
i was bloody and pale wasn't i? fresh cuts upon my wrists weren't there
I'm so sorry and i love you
don't touch me mother
don't bare the sadness in the future of having to remember holding you dead child
just walk out mother just walk out
call the ambulance and they'll ship me away
while u brush your tears
stop crying mother
STOP CRYING
as i weep up in the clouds
this is not worth you sadness
please smile mother I'm happy
please smile mother I'm happy
PLEASE SMILE MOTHER I'M HAPPY
your driving me crazy seeing you so sad
Please just smile because now I'm happy

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