Obvious You Don't Care

My stomach is hurting with the tears that fall from my face.
my mind is wasted off the way you loved me.
to me everything you have told me.
was nothing but lies from now on.
i wish i wanna believe everything you say to me.
but i can't and i won't let it believe it out of me.

you told me that you love me.
that you wanna be with me.
but you like someone else.
that you didn't want to like.
that person was your best friend.
the one who is suppose to help you to the end.
not have you fall in love.
the one your suppose to tell not think about them.

now i can't do anything about it.
now all i can do is cry myself to sleep.
let myself weep.
i just can't stop thinking about you.
i just can't and i don't want to stop.
i love you so much even though you don't love me back.
you only care about me still.

what if i make a suicide tonight.
what if i begin to fight.
with myself in the head.
what if i begin to cut myself until i sleep dead.
i can't handle this anymore.
it's a shut up door.
inside my mind and on the floor.

i can't have you anymore.
i can't love you like i have.
i can't tell you things i need to.
now i know you won't be thinking about me.
because it'll be your best friend.
this hurts more then anything.
you think you know but you have no idea.

i wish this pain can go away.
i don't want to stay.
i don't need to not today.
just tell me things that i will believe.
tell me that you still love me.
tell me that you still think about me.
tell me anything to make me stay with you.
because right now I'm living a nightmare.
and obvious you don't care.