I admit

I admit i made a mistake.
will you ever forgive me?
i hope so.
please?

i admit i changed.
will you love me again?
i didn't mean to.
so?

i admit i walked away.
will you except my return?
i had to think.
will you?

i admit i messed this friendship up.
will you be my friend again?
i regret it all.
please?

i admit i lied.. a few too many times.
will you look past that?
i will do anything.
can you?

i admit i let you walk away.
will you turn back?
i don't know.
will you even look back?

i admit i never cherished you like i said i did.
will you forgive me?
i didn't think it'd turn out that bad.
forgive me please?

now i sit here and look down on you.
you are so still.
you look scared.
are you?

or are you brave?
will you come back?
i hope you do.
i miss you.

you were my heart.
my life.
my best friend.
my enemy.

why did i let you go?
i could of held on.
it felt so right.
but i knew it was wrong.

now here i am.
sitting in my cell.
i made you lose your last chance at life.
since i chose to drink and drive.

going around that bend..is such a blur.
but hearing your scream..
and seeing the headlights..
is so clear in my mind.

you had your seatbelt on..
i didn't have on mine..
so why did God take you instead?
i wish he would of took my instead.

you had a life.
a family.
wonderful friends.
and me.

why was i so f*ing stupid.
I'm gonna hate my self for ever.
I'm lucky they even let me go to your funeral.
but i am grateful.. to have known you.

I'm sorry..
i love you..