Dedicated to Andy.

I didn't cry, I didn't blink.
I didn't scream out with guilt.
I didn't get it, I didn't see it.
I don't want to understand.
I want to be left, in this stat.
Feeling alone, and afraid to say so.
I didn't believe you.
Didn't care to listen.
I said my good byes.
Not realizing they were the last time we would talk.
Got a letter, not by you.
By your mom, telling me what you had done.
It read something like this:
"M' dear Megan, Sorry to write and tell you so,
Andy took his life, just the other night.
No one knew why, spent hours cleaning the mess.
Are hearts are filled with guilt, for we fear it is all are fault.
The mistakes we had made, and now, are Andy is gone.
A single gun shot, to the head, oh the horror it is.
Take care, I love you dear."
How come you did such a stupid thing?
Did you not care enough to think?
Did you not use your head to realize, you hurt us?
Hurt me?
I didn't cry, I didn't Blink.
I didn't scream out with guilt.
I didn't get it, didn't see it.
I saved the letter, for today is the day you killed yourself.
I went to your grave, with flowerer's and the dreadful note.
I sat down crossed my legs, and read you the note.
"M' dear Megan, Sorry to write and tell you so,
Andy took his life, just the other night.
No one knew why, spent hours cleaning the mess.
Are hearts are filled with guilt, for we fear it is all are fault.
The mistakes we had made, and now, are Andy is gone.
A single gun shot, to the head, oh the horror it is.
Take care, I love you dear."
Andy, why couldn't you see you are hurting me.
Why couldn't you just, stop to think?
What's done is done, I just hope your happy.
For, your mistake shall not go unnoticed.

(For my best friend Andy) ©Megan- 2005