While i cry

While i cry..
i think of all those people i love..
i think of how i have disappointed them..
and i feel like shit.

While i cry..
i remember looking at him last night..
with another girl..
and i feel so betrayed.

While i cry..
i think about my life..
and realize it would be better to put an end to it..
and then i feel even worse.

While i cry..
i feel so stupid..
because i might be crying for the wrong reasons..
and i feel so dumb.

While i cry..
i wish my life was different..
and try to think of ways to change it..
then i feel so useless.