Not reality

The last pedal from the black rose falls
And I'm here holding in my hand that which used to be my life.
I lie on my bed, a wet pillow and a soiled face to show.
completely defenseless against the evils of being alone
I lost you and as I lay myself to sleep tonight you'll remain but a dream,
And it's sad that I wish I had never dreamt at all
for my broken dreams have been wrapped around my throat
I gave you everything yet everything didn't seem to be enough,
I could never be good enough for you.
You promised me forever
And yes, forever is nice, but it never seems to last long.
so i created a barrier of lies to surround me
a life of lies and a love of lies
and i will sit in this self mended cage,
forever loving you
and for loving you i pay a price
building a debt which leaves me estranged to the world, frightened to its delusions.
I am lost beneath shadows of a shattered heart;
Bound and blinded as I am lead by a masked angel
To a world of those who like myself were destroyed by naivety.
The echoing of my hollow tears is the overture to my heart
And as I listen a silent part of me cries out for you.
i strive for heaven on a hellish earth
left only in darkness
left to suffocate beneath the rubble of a lost love
i realize that the safest way to love is not to love at all
So I shut myself from the world hoping that it will ease my pain
but it doesn't
I am nothing without you but a life void of you is what I must live
your smell lingers only in my memory
and your touch is nothing but a craving
Each moment goes by one breath at a time and I dread each breath I must take
But I go on walking in a hollow shell wishing that you'd be at my side,
knowing that its not reality

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