Anger and hatered its all the same

Can someone tell me why do i feel this way
all locked up with so much pain
i don't trust you and now i don't trust him
you donut know how many times Ive tried to let you'll in
but anger and hatred always seem to win
you used to be my best friend
and daddy well he used to be my hero
now to tell you'll the truth you'll are both zeros
i still love you and i still love him
but nothing in my life will ever be the same
I've seen the way you've done us wrong
the way you were laid up in someone else's arms
i try to forget it as if the moment wasn't there
tell me how to do it cause I'm pulling out my hair
now its him hurting us all
watch out Blanca theres a hole
(Blanca) and once again i fall
falling deeper and deeper into the hole of insanity
look at my blood drip out of my veins
the anger, the hatred all this damn pain
tugging my emotions in different directions
shit its final Blanca you are insane