My little brother, Joey

Spending the last time I have with you,
Deciding if I should have been there too,
I have to remain strong and take the pain,
Standing alone and drenched in the rain,
I feel cold, empty and emotionally dead,
I'm trying to keep this all locked up in my head,
You deserve to have complete and utermost happiness,
Joey, I'm sorry if I ever made you feel sadness,
I love you with any choice you made,
Even if my soul's become a different shade,