Prayer

Dear Lord,

I know Ive questioned your existence,
I know I dont really pray.
but tonight I was hoping,
you would take my life away.

Im tired of trying,
listening to the complains.
I tired of seeking,
release from my pains.

Death seems like an option,
I am willing to take.
Please take my life,
in the name of your sake.

So not only am I begging,
but Im praying to you tonight.
If you arent the one,
Then it will be my knife.

Because I know no body care,
I seek for it.
I know I am worthy of nothing,
Thats why my writs are slit.

I prayed to you before,
so many times it seems.
I want to stay asleep,
And live inside my dreams.

I want to be happy,
Ive tried so hard and long,
That is why,
I never want to see a new dawn.

I feel so week inside,
it seems theres nothing there.
Just the pain and the memories,
that become so hard to bear.

I do not shed a tear,
I do not speak a word.
My pain is never seen,
and it is never heard.

I write this now,
so people can know.
Everything that set inside me,
and what I did not show.

From the one,
sitting alone.
whose wrists are slit,
down to the bone

Wanting, waiting,
no more time,
I am at the end,
of my line.

In the dark corner,
I await,
someone please rescue me,
Before its too late....