My Mind

Can I ever let my feelings get the better part of me?
I'm tired of trying to be somebody I'm hoping you would see.
I'm confused everyday with the choices I face.
I let go of the chaos and invite the pain.
I make the wrong choices but I never do learn.
Over and over again, always feeling the burn.

I cry ever night... Can I go on?
The pain's too hard to take, the darkness will linger on.
The untamed emotions welling in my heart...
Feel so strong they could tear me apart.

It's just too impossible to shake the grief.
I imagine being on a cliff that's high and steep.
A million thoughts run through my mind.
A million words I can never find.
I need a sign to show me the way.
Help let me live for one more day.

Arrows.. Arrows.. Arrows are all I see.
Here.. There.. Which path is right for me?
Headaches and heartaches day after day I feel.
Love and joy I miss so dear.

Being gone would maybe help.
The bottled up will finally be shed.
I don't know what I should do.
All this is happening because of you.

Maybe the problem's not in my head.
The problem may lie in you instead.
Why would I feel so much for a person?
Am I really in love or am I just crushing?

I don't know.. I don't know... Am I happy Or sad?
Maybe I'm crazy but would that be bad?
I'm rambling and talking, but it's about one thing...
Is it really? It's not what it seems.

A personal traffic sets off in my brain.
I guess thinking of you makes me go insane.
I haven't been myself since the moment I fell.
It hasn't been better, more like going through hell.

I doubt that your feelings about me are so similar.
So why do I feel you value's sentimental?
How do I deal without you in my life?
I lay on my bed but I can't sleep at night.

I only wish you'll even let me hold you down.
What am I thinking... I don't stand a chance with a crown.
Your true beauty is fascinating...
To me you're heaven, your soul's radiating.
To be with you is something to be ridiculed.
So why am I so sprung on you?