I can feel it coming back up
or trying to
the stabbing pain in my stomach
bringing tears to my eyes
i can feel my heart slamming in my rib cage
and my pulse racing
i want it to stop
i didn't mean to do this
i don't want to die after all
i don't want to lose everything i have
i can't
breath hurts right now
i feel like I'm gonna die
i feel like my heart is going to explode
i feel a knife going through my stomach
ripping me apart inside
i can feel it at my throat
about to come up
but it won't
it won't
it's staying down
it won't
I'm so scared right now
I'm so scared
i want to be saved
but maybe it's too late
it hurts so much
why'd i do this?!
I'm so stupid...
i don't want to die though
i don't want to say goodbye
not yet
not now....
