Not Worth It

Sometimes I wonder if life is even worth it
If all the I have to be so God Dang freakin perfect
I put on a mask, so the pain no one can see
But inside, I\'m torn up, and it\'s freakin killing me
I try to stand tall, and act like I love life
But now I\'m putting down the gauntlet and picking up the knife
I am but one person, I cant handle this all
And because of this hurt, I will painstakingly fall
Too much is asked, I cant take it anymore
It\'s time I let my life, just shatter to the floor
I dont want help, I\'m too strong to ask
But all I really want is to have my life back
I\'m tired of frontin\' and hiding my pain
I can\'t keep covering the slashes on my veins
I can\'t handle this stuff, I am just too weak
So with this blade in my hands, I fall to my knees
I shudder as I slice and the blood just seaps
But by doing this, my pain, I release
I tried to please you, and just be so perfect
But I\'ve come to the conclusion, that life....just isnt worth it