Can you tell the one you love your secret?

It was my freshman year, everyone loved me, But there was this particular guy who always tried to get at me, I never gave him the chance, but one day he got me i gave him a chance and we fell in love... we were together for over 10 months we had our moments i always got hurt... we broke up with each other like 5 times but always got back together.. I thought we would be together for ever.. until one time i went to my friends and some things happened but i didn't want it to.. i thought i could tell him anything an he would be here for me but he left me.. i still wanted him though i realized i don't need some one who wouldn't be here for me.. he still told me he loved me but he said he couldn't be with some one that goes to a guys house.. even though we were just talking bout getting together at the time and went. and even though he knew i didn't want to do anything with that other guy... i thought he really didn't love me though he said he did because he wouldn't be with me.. he recently has a new girl and moved on... i ask him how can he let some one take my place and he says she didn't but she did..i talk to him once in a while... he still tells me he loves me.. but does he??

Beacasue he left me cuz i was raped