As the Tears Come

Home tonight from POP
As I lay on my bed,
I think about what went on
I can barely write, my pen is slipping
As the tears come

Tonight was the night I told him just to drop it
I told him it was another guy,
which was true,
So why do I feel that I regret it?

Sure, I loved him, but what else is there to build a relationship on? I'm so confused, frustrated, and sad

I know I must tell my other BF what went on,
But I don't know if he'll ever forgive me
He seems like a very understanding guy, but I don't know how he'll take it

But I know I have to tell him,
I can't just lie......................again

I'm sick of myself for putting everyone through this
They don't deserve it, but I do

I can't forgive me
I'm still thinking of him,
As the tears come.

*(just a few thoughts jotted down that night, not really in a poem form)*