The way I always feel
Because of what's happened
The stuff I'm expected to deal.
All the things ever gone wrong
Has increased this negative voice
But it's me who makes my choice.
This life I've grown into
There's nothing I can do
The pain I've been through
I can no longer block out.
My upsetting past
Has lead me to do things
I never thought I'd do.
Has made things happen
That I didn't think I could pull through.
The word money I do not like
For its money that has ruined my life.
I hate how the problem is now me
How because dads gone
There is no specific problem
So why can't I see.
I hate my family
And what they've done to me
The reason why I understand
The bad person I am, I deserve all I get.
I cannot complain,
It's what keeps me sane.
The way mum almost left
And how I didn't understand
Breaking her promise
But still doing all she can.
The way she thought life would be better and all fine
This steep mountain I do not want to climb.
The constant worry
That someone close to me
Will take their life
Powerless to stop it.
The way I am
Because of what's happened
I do not like
This is me, and this is my life.
