Gone

It hurts, so much, deep down I am cut deep,
The moment was there, the world at my feet,
I had everything, only to fall down in a heap.
Never would I dream that it would end as such.
I thought I was smart, but really I never knew much.
If I had of known, the end was near,
I would have stopped and never came here.
I was stupid, my decisions were bad,
If only I knew I wouldnt be so sad.
I look back and I realise, I could have survived,
If I hadnt have been so dumb Id still be alive.
Life is a gift and I took it for granted,
I should have lived life, like the way God planned,
I should have smiled, be happy and take a stand.
Never have gotten down, because I was so lucky,
I had my health, my friends, love and it all,
Only for it to end with such a great fall.
I regret doing what I did,
The one who would sit in class and bully that kid.
I was so mean, so angry; I was built up with hate,
Could I have changed the way that I thought,
Or was the person I am just cruel fate?
Never will I know because I am sentenced to hell,
These are the last words that I will ever tell.