To Cold to Numb The Pain

***I dont like my title i was wanting something with a cooler sound if you think of something let me know!***

I lie awake in bed
Cant get you out of my head
The weather numbs in a change of direction
What hurts more is your frostbitten rejection

My lips colored in blue
Relief officially long overdue
Shivering as the urge starts to dilate
Ice begins to choke and I start to suffocate

Take caution when your fingers are frail
Scratch marks must be made with great detail
With each breath you have to be explicit
If a tear should occur you wouldnt want to miss it

The salty paroxysm never does attend
The pain inside instead left to transcend
The hurt and aching never goes away
My mind just running over words i wish you would say

Long for the affection of the ice cold blade
Thirst to watch the scarlet tears cascade
However Im confined and caged by covers
Cant manage to use my salient lovers

So Ill freeze to the core
Struggling to just ignore
(That Im)
Far too cold on the outside
To numb feelings I cant hide

***This is about the fricken snow i can't hurt myself when i'm freezing cold so where does that leave me!?!?...***
***I don't know this really is a bad poem because i really don't like the aabb ccdd form i chose to put it in but oh well***