My feelings for you

My heart is in so much pain
and it's all because of you
ever since the day we met
my life has been a total game
you don't understand
my feelings for you
it's not just a little crush
it's love and obsession
there's not one day that goes
that I am not thinking about you
I try to end my love for you
but it wont stop
because of the memories from the past
when you say them harmful words
I keep the pain locked up
then I cut and
let it all bleed out
Sometimes I just wish I could die
like today when called me a loser
or when you called me a dumb ass
and told me to quit texting
well this is no joke
this is nothing,
nothing but the truth
So whoever you are I want you to know
that I love you
And I hope you will understand
that i will not go!!