Can someone please tell me why i do this
please tell my why i put myself through this
why cant i just tell him how i feel
so i can stop feeling this pain and begin to heal
these tears fall from my eyes
too many times
when is it OK for me to be happy with my life
why isn't OK for me to not have to sacrifice
i just wanna be free
from the guilt inside of me
sometimes i wish there tears would wash it all away
so i could wake up and be happy for just one day
i hate all these pressures
the pain this causes cant be measured
death is the easy way out
but me..kill myself... i doubt
how do you tell someone who loves you
there not what you want, something i cant do
i go to sleep with the hopes of never waking up
to live in a dream forever! thats whats sup
i wish i could rewind time
and change my mind
so i wouldn't be wasting my time
but this is something i have to do
cause it's time for me to be true
true to my own feelings
so i can come down form the ceiling
so please tell me when its OK
to live my life my own way
do i love him? yes i do
but I'm not ready for this relationship, i cant be with you
i cant Imagen how he feels
or how he's gonna deal
he says he wants to wait for me
but i don't know when with him ill be
so please don't wait for me go do your thing
cause for me to think of you not happy feels like a Sharpe sting
let me figures this out on my own
and then maybe we can have our own home
