Wow, im not just commenting coz my name is chantelle too, but you have been through so much. You must be a very strong person because i know if i went through just half of that i couldnt take it. You seem like a very nice person and i hope for the best that things will work out for you. Keep praying to god because he will listen and one day things will seem alot better. Even though im a stranger i will pray for you( dont mean to sound too preachy but i believe in god) because i believe that everyone deserves to experience happiness and not always be experiencing the bad things in life. Well i wish you the best in life

Love (strangely enough) Chantelle