If I could only pretend that Im happy, maybe Ill be able to fool myself
God only knows how I feel; I hide it so well from everybody else
But Im starting to wonder if this is all that it'll ever be?
If life will continue on the way that it's been treating me
If Ill ever really know whats true and everything thats not
If Ill ever be truly happy with all the things that Ive got
Whats my purpose? Why have I been put upon this earth?
How will be measured? What is deemed my worth?
My time here is so much shorter than Ill ever really know
How will I ever do all I want to do before I have to go?
I feel like the moments are slipping away before my very eyes
I look around me, I hate everything I see but somehow its no surprise
People taking lives, some not theirs and some that are their own
Judgment and racism separate us, leaving everyone alone
Resentment and hate, a common thread that we all share
A malady without cure though it seems no one gives a care
More and more everyday I'm convinced that heaven really does exist
Because life is more like hell on earth, theres got to be a better than this
Taught to believe that the more material we have, the happier we will be
All of us convinced that money will somehow make our lives easy
So we spend our lives living up, never giving up on our dreams
And in an instant our whole world could be torn at the seams
We forget to laugh at the little things; we forget to spend the time
Maybe we are a little too busy, got a little too much on our mind
So we forget to say I love you, we always forget to call
We even sometimes forget to remember anything at all
Another day gone by, another year gone past
Less and less time, each year more hectic than the last
What happened to the carefree child that had not a single doubt?
And who knew as we grew older we know less what life was all about?
So I close my eyes and imagine complete happiness around me
Though time and time again what I imagine is never what I see
Maybe I never will; I guess you never know until you try
And before you know it, its all over. Before you know it, its the day you die.
