Hurting inside

I hurt, I hurt so bad,
I can't believe I got to be so sad,
You said you would always be there for me,
But now your gone to where I can't see,

I wish I could take back everything I've done,
But I can't so I think I leave, but not for long,
Because I'm stuck to you,
And whatever I say, you see right though,

You left here all alone,
Now I'm just another person that goes unknown
You really don't understand what you meant
For all the time we could have spent

I hate myself for doing this
Everything's gone, there nothing I don't miss,
I wish I could just take it all back
But I cant because of everything I lack

I cry myself to sleep sometimes,
And it stabs me in the back like a couple of knifes,
Just take it all away,
So one day I can be okay,

I feel so stupid deep down below,
Because I can't even tell myself "no"
Its all my fault, it always will be,
Even if you cannot see

I screw up so much,
That all feeling has gone, I have no touch,
I wish I could stop so I wouldn't hurt you,
But I can't, that's why I need you

You probably can't grasp it,
Because I've dug myself into such a large pit,
Someday I'll find my way out,
I'll find my own route...

Then maybe you'll be back from being gone,
I hope that it doesn't take to long,
I can't hold on, not anymore,
Because everything I've done, shut the door,

I have nothing else left,
Besides the memories I kept,
I never seemed to like you,
But the truth is I love you.