Again

It's my life
I can do what I please
I need no help
For your love- it's diseased.
It's my life
And you don't understand
That I
Have never made a single demand.
I've not needed your help so far
So what makes you think
That I would need it now
When the only thing you've done is DRINK?
I've made it on my own, this far
So don't start acting like a parent
When your love, in the past
Has been so transparent.
I've learned
Everything I need to know
About living life
And letting no pain show.
I can retreat to my mind
And let joy and happiness take leave
While hate and misery
Begin their weave.
Childhood memories
Hold their place in my heart
But what I would give
For them to depart.
My question is
What reason is there to live?
When PAIN is what I face every morning
And I have no LOVE to give.
So, my dear family
This happy little secret we've kept
Has left me here
In my small room where I have wept.
When no more tears are left
And all feelings are gone
I can make myself say over again
"No, you've never done anything wrong."
Now I will tell you
How things will be
And I can only hope
You will begin to see.
Never again
Will I pull for you
You can make your own lies
And there's nothing I will do.
I'm leaving now
Hopefully never will I see you again
This is the final time I will take your crap
And the last time that I can.