Let it bleed

I let it bleed,
onto the bathroom floor,
soak into the carpet,
and stain the tiled floor,

I let it bleed,
to stop the pain,
to stop the hurting,
to stop the name,

I let it bleed,
as i felt,
the sharp object,
on my cut,

I let it bleed,
all over my body,
and all over my stuff,

i let it bleed,
as my mum walked into the bathroom,
screamed at the sight,
and grabbed my blade and screamed, "WHY"

i looked at her with my pained filled eyes,
And told her,
i said i loved him,
and he just walked on by,

didn't even answer,
didn't even say,
i love you too,
lets go out on a date,
he ignored me all day,
and left me alone,

she looked at me stunned,
That cant be true,
if he didn't say anything,
then he is not for you,

i answered back,
no mum not him,
he is the sun, the moon,
he is my everything.

everything i dreamt of everything i love, everything i wanted, everything i longed,

i love him with my heart,
this is not fake,
not lust not a crush,
Just all love

she looked at me,
and walked out,
came back with a knife,
in her hand,

said to me,
if its true love,
then u wont have a problem plunging this into your heart,
I'll leave you alone,
to let you think,

she walked out,
thinking she'll fall for my trick,
she doesn't really love,
she just sixteen,
but there she was wrong my love was not just a thing,

i grabbed the knife without hesitation,
and stabbed my heart,
fell to the floor and watch the light fade out.

She came back in thinking I'd be there,
but what she saw was just my body limp on the floor,

NOOO she screamed,
it wasn't real love,
i was only sixteen she said to herself,
true love is not a thing i should have felt.

she didn't no what she did wrong,
when she was sixteen her mother did the same,
when she found here crying ova a guy,
cutting her wrist up,
she made her try to kill herself,
but she didn't because what she felt wasn't love,

Just a lust, just a crush,
all was fake,

But then why did her daughter kill herself,
was it real love she felt?
did she just help her daughter kill herself???

be kind i wrote this a 3 in the morning!!
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