You can't say those words to me,
You don't have a right to,
I won't believe it,
I want to be with you,
You don't mean it when you say you don't love me anymore,
You are just lying,
You don't look me in the eyes,
It makes me feel like dying,
It's not fair,
I still want you,
You belong in my heart,
Not a friend just to talk to,
So I ask you to stay with me,
While I learn to accept it,
Pretend everything is still real,
Holding me in your arms even though you no longer felt it,
I was scared of this happening,
It was my biggest fear,
I fall apart in your arms,
Even though you probably don't care,
Finally I tell you I'm ok,
My soul has drenched the floor,
You hug me and say "I'm sorry",
I bite my lip as you walk out the door,
I slowly step upstairs,
With a blank look ahead,
I try to pretend you are still with me,
As I crawl into my bed,
My head screams to me every word,
I still could get lost in your eyes,
If only this could have worked,
My heart would be still be quiet without it's cries,
Once again I am broken,
This time I don't want to be repaired,
I don't have the energy,
There won't be a next time so from pain I will be spared,
Days, weeks, months pass,
Never said a word,
Until one day I show up at his door,
Pocketing my razor like a sword,
He thought I was ok,
I showed no emotion at school,
He opens the door from the sound of the bell,
And looked at me like everything was cool,
I asked if we could go in his room,
We sat and talked for a few,
Time passed quickly as I grew anxious,
I was about to do something I probably shouldn't do,
I reached into my pocket,
As I was about to pour crimson regret onto him,
I felt his warm hands grab my face,
Suddenly he kissed me before I committed sin,
I tasted salty tears,
Stream down his face,
Tears pour from my eyes,
As we embrace,
He told me he was stupid,
Without any lies,
I was the one he'd love forever,
With no compromise,
I will always remember,
And never forget,
He has rescued me,
I will be forever in debt,
I will never hurt myself again,
What we have is so real,
My heart is whole for once,
Nothing could ever change how I feel.
