Sometimes You Just Gotta' Let It Out

I stare at the floor
Beneath me and wonder why
Why Im still here
Why I force my self not to cry

It feels as though my world has just ended
Yet really it has just begun
During the summer I met a cute boy
By the end of the summer to him I was mindless fun

Yet still Im here
And Im in one piece
But the pain has taken over
And no matter what does not wish to cease

I thought about dying
So many times
It just doesnt feel right
Just because he can no longer be mine

Thats just the way I feel though
I cant help but feel
I wish I didnt though
I wish it wasnt real

I cant take it anymore
Slowly down my cheeks tears being to burn
Etching into my skin leaving wet marks
Now everyone can see my pain and my stomach begins to churn

People are learning that the face I wore
Was just a happy mask
I was pushing the pain away
By focusing on a task

It worked for so long
But now I cant contain
All the things that Ive kept inside
All my thoughts and all my pain

I feel better now
I let it all out
I can feel other things
Though most are clouded with doubt...