It starts today
the world away
everything i know is gone
i dont understand anything
anymore
your silence killed me
took everything from me
you dont care
dont know
i cut myself for you
the pain you caused
so deep inside
now you can see
i brought it out
so you could see
what you did to me
but hide i must
the cuts will rust
and the pain will
sink back in
you dont deserve to know
how far i can go
one day you may know
but in the end i'll
never show
it starts today
the world away
everything i know is gone
i dont understand anything
anymore
your violence killed me
against the wall i never knew
you dont know
dont understand
grab a hold my shirt is
not yours to throw
i cut myself for you
the pain you caused
so deep inside
now you can see
i brought it out
so you could see
what you did to me
but hide i must
tonite i will let the cuts rust
sink back inside
you dont deserve to know
how far i can go
one day you may know
but in the end ill
never show
it starts today
the world away
everything i know is gone
this is the day my cuts have
gone away you cant touch me
you dont deserve to know me
who ive become
tonite i will walk away
tomorrow will be a new day and
i will start anew
the pain i felt everyday just grew and grew
now i know it was becuase of
you and you
hide away
gone away
the scars will never fade
memories of the me i used to be
memories of the way you treated me
it starts today
the world away
i try to begin again
this me i see i could never be
when i was home
you dont know
dont care
can not ever understand
i cut myself so you
could see what you
did to me
now because of you
i cut myself just to know
i can still see who is the
real me
but through this pain
i may never know
who i am
i cant believe
you cant see
the pain you brought to me
when i stick out my arms
you just look at me
like what has she done?
you never knew that it was you
this image ive become
why cant you see
what youve done to me
just look down and see
the child you destroyed
the daughter you destroyed
its becuase of you that
i cant be me
someone i wish i knew
silence and violence was how i grew
the two who said they loved me
never knew
tomorrow i will try to understand
just who the hell i am
yesterday i thought i knew
but then the pain grew
you say you care
like you understand
but youve gone away
and left me here
alone again
you could never care about me
you cant love a person you
refuse to see
the problem you pretend you dont see
isnt because of me
this is not right
i thought you couldnt touch me
i thought you couldnt hurt me
but here you are again
the echos of your silence
the echos of my back against the wall
are killing me again
over and over this pain will
never end
surrounded by sadness again
the meds arent kicking in
why is it when i have to feel
i feel the pain you caused
always the pain you caused
crowding my memories
haunting my sleep
the visions of you
hurting me through the
silence through the violence
through the cuts i give myself
my arm is tingling
the pain is flowing
onto the knife
my stomach hurts again
the pain you caused
is sinking in
chillingly cold
friehtenly bold
i grab the handle and
stand up again
here to start again
my world will never end
